day 19

Things were peaceful for a while. So much so that I’d originally planned to write about binging Too Hot To Handle (am less ashamed that I’d like to admit). Nah said 2020.

These days we’ve been forced to examine what really matters. Our conversations are shorter and sparser yet deeper. If you’re not able to connect with someone now, no way you’re connecting outside of this. This was the realization I came to - though it’s been brewing for months - and obviously completely botched the delivery of this morning.

I’m talking about stepping away from a friendship.

It’s hard to stay level headed on this stuff. Even harder with ongoing background anxiety.

But the truth always comes out and I’ll take reality over fantasy any day, however sucky it may be.

We talk about romantic relationships all the time but what about friendships? Adult friendships are trickier than we give credit for. Then you add in things like values / time / distance and it’s no wonder when we find a good friend we hold onto them.

Eventually though you realize nothing lasts forever, and only a few things can last a long time if you take care of them (like say cast iron.)

Sometimes it takes years to realize this. Other times just a pandemic will do.

What’s it like to go through a (friend) breakup during quarantine? We’re about to find out.