july 25

No clue how to make this sound less weird / extreme / woo woo so I won’t bother:

There’s no turning back to my old life. At least not in a way that wouldn’t conflict in my soul or make me feel inauthentic. Authenticity is something I value immensely, I’m learning.

Felt strangely emotional - even more than usual - all week. Then one night after watching Kiki’s Delivery Service, I literally started sobbing. It wasn’t the movie per se, though it is a beautiful film with themes of finding your own path. Rather the movie offered a channel for my emotions, releasing a wave that had been building for months.

In that moment I felt immense clarity and powerlessness at my purpose. I felt in my heart I needed to get out of my own way and listen to my soul rather than my mind.

So I won’t be returning to the corporate world after this stint, at least not right away. Which is terrifying and exhilarating to admit. It’s early and I’m trying SO hard to be present in the travels vs. plan for what’s next.

This breakthrough felt like a turning point. My body and emotions telling me something and me being still enough to listen.